Post by Unknown88 on May 14, 2020 9:51:37 GMT -5
I just wanted to share my story. It sounds very familiar to things I've read online too.
I converted to islam nearly a decade ago now. I was greeted with love and friendship and immediately felt welcome. A few gave me their numbers and we were talking and seeing eachother often for maybe a month.
But then as time went on, they stopped replying/answering calls and eventually never contacted me at all.
Of course as with most reverts, I lost friends and family. But I didnt care. I had my faith.
For years I looked for a wife, put myself on the masjid marriage list, 10 years later I still havnt heard back from that lol. I also tried multiple dating sites over the years, speaking to various women from different nations and cultures and talking or meeting all ended up in the same scenario, family would not accept a revert etc.
Since my teenage years I have battled depression and anxiety and as you can imagine the constant state of rejection from all sides will magnify these things quite significantly.
Self isolation from corona virus? No a lot of us reverts have been doing that for a long time.
Now here I am nearly a decade later, more depressed than I was before Islam, I havnt prayed in months, and I havnt even fasted a single day so far this ramadan. To be honest, I dont even care anymore. I'm not sure I even consider myself muslim anymore. I'm probably not.
Just though I'd share that needed to get it off myself.
I converted to islam nearly a decade ago now. I was greeted with love and friendship and immediately felt welcome. A few gave me their numbers and we were talking and seeing eachother often for maybe a month.
But then as time went on, they stopped replying/answering calls and eventually never contacted me at all.
Of course as with most reverts, I lost friends and family. But I didnt care. I had my faith.
For years I looked for a wife, put myself on the masjid marriage list, 10 years later I still havnt heard back from that lol. I also tried multiple dating sites over the years, speaking to various women from different nations and cultures and talking or meeting all ended up in the same scenario, family would not accept a revert etc.
Since my teenage years I have battled depression and anxiety and as you can imagine the constant state of rejection from all sides will magnify these things quite significantly.
Self isolation from corona virus? No a lot of us reverts have been doing that for a long time.
Now here I am nearly a decade later, more depressed than I was before Islam, I havnt prayed in months, and I havnt even fasted a single day so far this ramadan. To be honest, I dont even care anymore. I'm not sure I even consider myself muslim anymore. I'm probably not.
Just though I'd share that needed to get it off myself.
