Any Advice About This?

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Assalamu Alaikum,

I recently converted to Islam, wow almost a year ago. And right now, I'm having some struggles and I would like to seek the advice of my ummah. I came into Islam with an open heart and open mind, and I fell in love. It was something I had never experienced before but honestly feel that my whole life had been set up to come face to face with this way of life. I am deeply grateful for it, Right now though I'm experiencing some anxiety and stress related to Islam. I'm more afraid than in love with Allah, and I don't know what to do about it. I'm not saying that I want to have this carefree attitude towards our creator, I love Him and appreciate Him deeply but I have this deep fear of the day of judgment and not being a good enough Muslim. Actually, that's my problem. I'm afraid that I won't be good enough for Allah or anyone else. I've been interested in marriage, just because this is a very important step in my life but I've also been told that marriage is a big step in our faith. I desire the love of a Muslim husband, however I don't feel like a good enough Muslim for him. I know that Islam covers all bases of my life, like spiritual, physical, and emotional kind of bases. I feel that my emotions and mindsets of what I struggle with are hurting me as a Muslim, and being new to the religion doesn't help me either. I'm not at all trying to leave Islam. I've tried going to the masjid, but my anxiety takes me over and I crash. I'm so afraid of judgment. I've been told that Muslims are wonderful people, I believe it. I really do, I just have a hard time being the new person right now. Insha'allah, I'm praying that it will get better. This has definitely been a test that Allah has placed in front of me. I've tried every route besides talking with my community, and right now this community is the only one I need and also feel comfortable with. It's not a person that sitting in front of me, waiting for my next move. It's patient and calm, and just waiting there but not on me. I don't know it's difficult to explain, but there's freedom behind this veil of a computer screen sometimes. I would truly appreciate any advice or duas or anything. Jazak Allah Khair in advance.

Assalamu Alaikum. 

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Dear new fellow traveler in the path to please our creator,
I hope this finds you in the state of strong faith in Allah and His revealed guidence.

I will by the grace of Allmighty try to provide you some food for thought that hope may be beneficial to you.

Who wrote :I'm experiencing some anxiety and stress related to Islam. I'm more afraid than in love with Allah, and I don't know what to do about it

Dear sister in faith, Allah starts all surahs in quran revealed by Him , with ArRahman Ar Raheem. Most Beneficient Most Mercyfull. One of the names of Allah is Al wadood You see these qualities reaveld by Allah about Him self is not made up qualities that humans made up to rememeber Allah by , but actual qualties about Himself that only He , Allah can know and which He revealed. According to the scholars of this beatiful religion , believing in the attributes revealed by our lord about himself, is one of the tenents of this faith without which belief is not complete. Another point to keep in mind that accroding to the scholars of religion, belief of beliver is between fear and hope.As too little fear of Allah and too much hope has become the downfall of this Ummah , The good news is you have fear , which actully is good, you just need to add hope and that comes fromreading 100 % belief in Allahs attribute of being, lLoving, Mercy full, forgiving and also reading hadith related to taubah or repentance in riyaad us saliheen, amomg others.


You wrote:
I've been interested in marriage, just because this is a very important step in my life but I've also been told that marriage is a big step in our faith. I desire the love of a Muslim husband, however I don't feel like a good enough Muslim for him.

Dear sister , please note applying in life is a process, hence the quran came down in the period of 23 years, Allah the All Wise could have sent down the full revelation instantly but He didn't sister , you see in an islamic marriage specially a marriage built upon coming closer to Allah partner help remind eachother of what is pleasing to Allah and What is not, and help each other to keep away from that which displease Allah and come closer that which pleases Allah , hence if a husband is truly sincere in marriage to please Allah, then working close with you to apply deen in every part of life would be both pleasurable and a blessing.

I hope this mail was beneficial in any way. I am currently in search for life partner with whom I can fullfill my deen also. Hence I pray that Almighty Lord help us both find the spouse that would be our loving support in the path to leave a life pleasing to Allah , firstly with most love for Allah and then for each other by the grace of Almigty. If I can be of any more help i am reachable at [e-mail]

Asslamoalaykom